Finally Me

Monday, May 19, 2003

Okay....the crankiness is gone. Whew.
I'm trying to get a short post in before my last nights sleep in my apartment. I can't believe that in nine hours, I will be on a plane to Jakarta. I can't tell if I am more nervous or more excited.

I was thinking today about going home and seeing all the people I love and miss and haven't seen in a year and a half. I am both excited and nervous about that too. It seems strange that I would be nervous about seeing everyone, but I am. I think it has to do with the ridiculous expectations that I have come up with, even though I have fought tooth and nail not to.

And it's about change. It's about me thinking that I was suppose to change in the past year, in this country, because of this experience. And although I do think there have been some changes in me, I wonder what my loved ones will think. I am nervous that maybe I have changed too much, or not enough...or that some people won't like the changes, or that some people won't see the changes.

I can't figure out in my head what the ideal scenerio is. None of them seem right, and yet it seems inevitable that they will occur.

And I know... it's not about what other people think about me, but what I think of myself. Honestly though, that's a great Hallmark card, but it's not exactly real life advice. Yes, there are some people that I couldn't give a shit about what they think, but when we are talking about your family and your closest friends and the people that are important in your life...it's not practical or realistic to say that. I care what they think, and I'm not ashamed to admit that their opinion is important to me.

Anyway... like I said before.... a short post. I'm off to stare at my laundry and see if that will help it to dry faster. I can't believe I left laundry to the last minute, I'm an ass.

But, as a quick side note, I would like to tell all of you that I will do my best to blog as often as I can, but not to be disappointed if I miss some days. Who knows how accessable a computer will be to me in the next nine weeks?! Be sure to stay tuned though...I know there are mad stories coming up!!

Posted by Kate at 11:02 AM |

Sunday, May 18, 2003

Okay...this is going to be quick, because I am exhausted, and CSI is on soon, and I can't miss my weekly fill of Warrick Brown. That man is delicious!!

Today was not a fun day. It was long and tiresome and I had one annoying thing happen right after another. I am usually a pretty positive person (keep your snickering to yourself, Andrea) and I try to have a good outlook on life, but here are some things that really get under my skin.

* cab drivers that don't know where they are going, but won't take directions.
* people who assume because I am single, I am miserable and sad about it.
* sidewalks made of marble.
* people who change topics on purpose because we disagree about something.
* when my alarm doesn't go off.
* rain so heavy that I can't run in it.
* my favorite basketball team getting beat in the playoffs.
* people who don't return e-mails.
* when people talk to you when you clearly don't want to be talked to.
* people who stare for no good reason, other than a lack of manners.
* feeling cranky.

Whew...there are more, but I'm gonna keep them to myself. I can only have so much negativity in a day, and this was clearly enough.

Posted by Kate at 11:48 AM |

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1. I'm 26.

2. I'm a Sagittarius.

3. I have a journalism degree.

4. I'm not a journalist.

5. I was born in Tiverton.

6. Toronto is my home.

7. I am in Taiwan, now.

8. I miss home.

9. I've learned to love kids.

10. I was 23 before I flew.

11. I want to travel the world.

12. I'm dying to go to Africa.

13. I have two sisters.

14. I love them to death.

15. My parents have been married for 33 years.

16. They amaze me everyday.

17. I have an older brother.

18. I'm not good at saying, "sorry."

19. I like shoes a lot.

20. I have a lot of them.

21. I have pierced ears.

22. I have a nose ring.

23. And three more somewhere.

24. I have a tattoo on my spine.

25. And another one on the back of my neck.

26. I wish I was taller.

27. I'm 5'8"

28. I love basketball.

29. I can't play worth shit.

30. I once practiced shuffling cards for three days.

31. I wanted to be a dealer in Vegas.

32. A card dealer, not a drug dealer.

33. I don't do drugs.

34. I love Bacardi, Baileys and Corona.

35. I have a green tea addiction.

36. I read.

37. A lot.

38. I do a crossword, everyday.

39. I rarely finish them.

40. I love to draw.

41. I'm not good at it.

42. I love living by myself.

43. I love the beach.

44. I love the sun.

45. I love to swim.

46. Hallowe'en is my favorite.

47. I trick or treated until I was about 15.

48. I only have one regret in life.

49. I'm not telling you what.

50. I've been in love.

51. I love being single.

52. I never want to get married.

53. I don't want to have kids.

54. I'm too selfish.

55. I've learned to be independent.

56. I'm proud of that.

57. My favorite compliment is, "You're smart."

58. I've had two friends named "Allison."

59. I lived with them both.

60. We were, "Kate and Allie."

61. I try not to watch a lot of TV.

62. But I do anyway.

63. My favorite CD's are...

64. Jay Z's Blueprint

65. Angie Stone's Mahogany Soul

66. A mixed soca CD

67. I love hip hop.

68. I miss BET.

69. I know gossiping is bad.

70. I do it anyway.

71. I don't wear any gold jewelry.

72. I don't really like animals.

73. I don't have any plants.

74. I feel like I should.

75. I'm studying Mandarin.

76. It's really hard.

77. I have a lot of scars.

78. I'm proud of them.

79. I'm very flexible.

80. My limbs, not my life.

81. I'm stubborn as hell.

82. I love all things banana.

83. Especially Ben and Jerry's Chunky Monkey ice cream.

84. I miss my girl, Jiggy.

85. I love sweatshirts and running shoes.

86. I can't save money...at all.

87. I have a freckle between two of my toes.

88. I once had a fish bone stuck in my tonsils.

89. I didn't eat fish for 18 years.

90. I can't cook.

91. I have no desire to.

92. People often think I'm a bitch.

93. I know I can be.

94. Ebonics irrate me. It's thanks, not thanx.

95. I always wanted to have glasses.

96. I miss chicken rotis from Island foods on McCall Street.

97. I have an amazing memory.

98. I think sarcasm is very funny.

99. I can talk, a lot.

100. I'm very grateful for all I have.

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